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[maitimo]

Has been depressed since seeing Fingon with Theoden, and feeling very lonely; hasn't spoken to his father or brothers (except for Maglor) in weeks; spends most of his time at the House of History, so Maglor won't take the books from him


Maedhros: *spending too much time reading future history; especially about Fingon saving him, and then about Fingon dying*
Fingon: *decides to go looking for Maedhros since it's been a while*
Maedhros: *emerging from the House of History; rather pale, dark circles under his eyes*
Fingon: *spots him from up ahead and runs over to meet him* Maitimo! ...are you all right?
Maedhros: *blinks* Hi Finde. Yes, I'm fine. *not really; pining for him*
Fingon: You don't look okay.   What IS it?  *frowns* did you read something terrible?
Maedhros: Er. Um. Yeah.
Fingon: Can I ask what?   Or... ...We shouldn't talk about this here.  Want to head back to my place?



Maedhros: *remembers he saw Theo there* Um. Well. I don't want to impose on your time.
Fingon:  Believe me, my schedule is very very open.
Fingon: always for you
Maedhros: Well.... *this is probably the wrong thing, but wants to* Okay.
Fingon: *smiles* Good.  We'll get you comfortable and then we can talk.  
Maedhros: *nods and goes with him, but not sure he should talk about what he's read*
Fingon: *lets Maedhros in* Would yu like something to drink? It might steady your nerves a little. You look...like you could use it.
Maedhros: *considers* Yes. I think I would.
Fingon: *goes to get him something and then sits next to him* Okay.  So.  
Maedhros: *sips* Yes....well.
Fingon: *feels the urge to put an arm around him,. Tells himself its for friend reasons. Doesn't believe it though, really*
Maedhros: Um... have you learned much about the future? Like, the stuff that we haven't got around to doing?
Fingon: That I die but no one wants to let me find out how.  
Maedhros: *nods and looks miserable*
Fingon: But. that isn't going to happen here. So many things have changed *little hug. Oh Eru, wants to do more than that*
Maedhros: *leans, just a little, and takes another gulp of his drink* And you... uh. Saved me.
Fingon: yes...yes that....your hand.  
Maedhros: *nods* You... probably should have let me die.
Fingon: This is YOU. so Never.
Maedhros: I'm sorry. That sounded so morbid. But after what we did to you.... I wouldn't have blamed you. And ... *groans* This is so weird because it didn't happen to ME, but still...
Fingon: you didn't do it.  Not you personally. I also don't exactly count Makalaure or Ambarussa in what happened.  They couldn't be swayed that way.   Or you. You could be forced but...I lo...know you.
Maedhros: *glances at him* I don't think... I don't think I would have.
Fingon: *nods* You would never.  I know that about you.   I mean...this is you. You'd have tried to stop it too.
Maedhros: One book said I tried to stop my father.... *only one book though*
Fingon:  Then I'm sure you did.  That's who you are.  You've always been amazingly strong that way. Even when it's hard.  
Maedhros: *rubs his wrist, which he's started to do lately* You too.
Maedhros: I mean, being strong. Even when it's hard.
Fingon: I..try. Sometimes I'm not so sure.  When it comes to things where people might not like the results...
Maedhros: *small smile* You save me.
Fingon:  *little laugh*  What else could I do?
Maedhros: Well, I can't imagine that all people approved.
Fingon: Well...all right that IS true  This is more a...*pause*  I don't know that YOU are going to approve either
Maedhros: Me? Approve of what?
Fingon: I...*little strangled note in his voice*  The way I feel about you.  It's...not natural.
Maedhros: *freezes* You... what?
Fingon:  I know this is...so horrible of me, and I'm sorry but I....I already love you of course but I'm attracted to you too.  *oh shit expression on his face*
Maedhros: *just stares at him*
Fingon: I...okay you noticed Theo's hair? That's the whole reason we had the friends with benefits thing going.   Oh Eru.... I can'tbelieveIjustsaidthis
Maedhros: *clears his throat* You're not... I thought he was... well... your boyfriend?
Fingon:  What? Oh no. It... I'm an elf with dark hair and very vaguely resemble who he's been after. And he, well, I thought it would help;
Maedhros: Help you because you...are attracted to me?
Fingon: yes I thought I could...pretend and things
Maedhros: *omg this is the best news ever; but wait what* Did you pretend?
Fingon: I...yes. I even uh...called him your name a few times...
Maedhros: O_O
Fingon: ...yees. it was sort of bad afterwards.  
Maedhros: Huh. Well. *trying to think of what to say.
Fingon: I...so that's the thing that I've been hiding. I don't know if you noticed. I was...acting weird.
Maedhros: *finally, smiles and admits* Me too...
Fingon: *laughs* I had hoped but didn't dare thing that some of the things you were saying were...meant in a certain way
Maedhros: *smiles* Well, me too... but I thought it was just me, and you'd think I was insane or perverted...
Fingon: that's...what I thought you would think
Maedhros: And I was so jealous of Theoden... I thought... you loved him.
Fingon: No no. Theo is a good friend but...it's not like that at all.  We were...trying to help each other
Maedhros: And you don't think I'm ... awful? I mean, I love you, you're my best friend, but... I'm in love with you too.
Fingon: Not at all..I...*leans over to kiss him*
Maedhros: *oh eru can't believe this is actually happening! kisses back*
Fingon: *this is..more perfect than he THOUGHT*
Maedhros: *leans in, kissing a little more; reaches up to stroke Fingon's hair; oh this is exactly right*
Fingon: *this is amazing.  Lets a hand tangle in Maitimo's hair*
Maedhros: *soft moan* Finde...
Fingon:  I've wanted to do this for....so long since you arrived...*little purr*
Maedhros: Mmm, me too. It's all I could think about when I looked at you... *frames Fingon's face with his hands and kisses again*
Fingon: *enjoys getting himself lost in these kisses* This is so amazing.  I wonder why it didn't occur to us before.  ...And why I waited so long to say anything
Maedhros: *shivers* Well... we were both afraid, I guess...
Fingon: I guess so.  *smiles* I'm glad we got this figured out
Maedhros: Me too... *then groans* We're going to have to keep this a secret.
Fingon:Yes, I think we probably ARE. I mean...Turgon wouldn't be too upset I don't think but...others...
Maedhros: My father!
Fingon: Yes exacty. I can't imagine he'd be pleased *nervous laugh*
Maedhros: Yeah, he have to keep it a secret. From my father. So he doesn't snap. *nods as he talks, explaining it to himself and Fingon*
Fingon: Definitey. *nodding* I don't want you hurt if he does snap
Maedhros: *looks concerned* I'd worry about what he'd do to you...
Fingon:  It would be all right. I would risk it for you.  But if he doesn't have to know I like that better
Maedhros: Let's just... not tell anyone yet. *pleased little smile* Keep it to ourselves...
Fingon: Definitely *reaches over to start braiding Maitimo's hair in a little braid. Because he CAN*
Maedhros: *leans on him happily, pressing little kisses to his neck*
Fingon: *grins at him*  Love you.  ...That feels so amazing to finally be able to SAY
Maedhros: *smiles* I love you too... Yeah, it does!
Fingon: *laughs and snuggles against him*

So. I guess that's all right then. ♥